Post by JessieLou on Jun 6, 2023 13:52:29 GMT -5
TRACK 11: "I Don't Hate You Anymore"
Musically inspired by:
You're cliquey with your friends
I'm jealous of your looks
You look like Britney Spears
And I'm f*cking plain Jane
You exclude me in everything
You never gave me a chance
You were awful to my brother in high school
When he just wanted to make friends
I wanted to see your baby
But you never even mentioned the card I sent
Or the blue teddy bear
I've resented you for years
I hate you with a passion
I fantasize about when karma bites you in the ass
You are nobody to me
You're the girl I wanted to be friends with
But never had the courage to say it
I've let this anger build up inside
On this one sided battlefield
We had so much in common
And I don't think you ever knew that
My Dad even said once we could've been sisters
Preferred stuffing over turkey
Loved boy bands and TRL
I remember when I was 9
You were listening to "Dilemma" with me and your friend
We loved it and sang along
But you only looked at your friend
And pretended I wasn't there
Remember when Hurricane Frances hit?
You and your family came to my house
You saw my Barbie collection
And wanted to play with me
I was shocked and played it cool
But inside I was so excited
You played for two f*cking minutes
Left me to be with the adults like I was a peasant
Hoping you'd eventually come back
And you never did
As I grow older, I know you're not fully to blame
I spent a long time being scared to open up
Missed out on some potential good memories
Sometimes I wish I could've had that cheesy bread with you
But I chose to listen to the radio instead
I can't believe how I let jealousy and envy consume me
I look back at the girl I was 10 years ago and don't recognize her
You were not perfect, you had f*ckups
But I was still unfair to you
I felt like an outcast at your baby shower
It pushed me over the edge
My depression gave me a skewed vision of reality
So skewed I viewed Lake County like it was 5th Avenue
So skewed I thought the blonde alcoholic in Leesburg was a friend
I hope one day we can meet again
Get closure, and be on good terms
I low key wish you'd be your Mom's +1
But I know you have a family now
So I just want to end this by saying
I'm sorry, and I don't hate you anymore
Musically inspired by:
You're cliquey with your friends
I'm jealous of your looks
You look like Britney Spears
And I'm f*cking plain Jane
You exclude me in everything
You never gave me a chance
You were awful to my brother in high school
When he just wanted to make friends
I wanted to see your baby
But you never even mentioned the card I sent
Or the blue teddy bear
I've resented you for years
I hate you with a passion
I fantasize about when karma bites you in the ass
You are nobody to me
You're the girl I wanted to be friends with
But never had the courage to say it
I've let this anger build up inside
On this one sided battlefield
We had so much in common
And I don't think you ever knew that
My Dad even said once we could've been sisters
Preferred stuffing over turkey
Loved boy bands and TRL
I remember when I was 9
You were listening to "Dilemma" with me and your friend
We loved it and sang along
But you only looked at your friend
And pretended I wasn't there
Remember when Hurricane Frances hit?
You and your family came to my house
You saw my Barbie collection
And wanted to play with me
I was shocked and played it cool
But inside I was so excited
You played for two f*cking minutes
Left me to be with the adults like I was a peasant
Hoping you'd eventually come back
And you never did
As I grow older, I know you're not fully to blame
I spent a long time being scared to open up
Missed out on some potential good memories
Sometimes I wish I could've had that cheesy bread with you
But I chose to listen to the radio instead
I can't believe how I let jealousy and envy consume me
I look back at the girl I was 10 years ago and don't recognize her
You were not perfect, you had f*ckups
But I was still unfair to you
I felt like an outcast at your baby shower
It pushed me over the edge
My depression gave me a skewed vision of reality
So skewed I viewed Lake County like it was 5th Avenue
So skewed I thought the blonde alcoholic in Leesburg was a friend
I hope one day we can meet again
Get closure, and be on good terms
I low key wish you'd be your Mom's +1
But I know you have a family now
So I just want to end this by saying
I'm sorry, and I don't hate you anymore